Monday, August 17, 2009

I had a bad day...

Ok, I know we all have them...days where things don't how you had hoped they would. Well today I received some news that made me feel really sad. Over the past year I have poured my heart and soul into a dream...a dream that I never imagined would be possible and yet it became possible. I am so grateful for that dream coming true and I wish with all my heart that the dream were not ending. But it is my reality and it hurts and it stinks and it doesn't feel good to not have any control over that dream. No way to change it, no way to know, didn't see it coming, and taken by surprise. It hasn't mattered how hard I've worked, how committed I've been, how loyal I've been, how creative I've been, or how many folks have told me that as a result of my dream/work how inspired they have been and how much they can relate to my work more than others because it is real. The reality is, that dream is over.

Now I am an optimistic person by nature! I tend to feel my hurt and pain, pull myself up by my bootstraps and move on. I know there is a plan for me...a new dream I will dream that I will try to make reality. I don't know what that dream is yet but I do know one thing......

If I am going to create something new for myself I cannot spend too much time looking at that closed door. I have to look for the open door and head down that path into what my next dream will be!

13 comments:

weze said...

hey girl...........talent like yours will not go unnoticed long. If that door closed on 1 dream then there is a window opening for your next dream..........maybe time to venture out and start your dream business!!

gscrapbooks said...

I am so very sorry to hear this. You're such a talent and have wonderful enthusiasm for this hobby. Wishing you the best! **hugs**

apaintergirl said...

...believe...
that's my word...i will share it with you...and, thinking of you!
chelle

Dawne Carlisle said...

You know I think you have MAD skills my friend... and they will not go unnoticed! You are a rare talent! Where this door is closed another - better door will be opened which will be a much better fit. I truly believe that. Hugs for you!

Angela said...

Hey Lisa!

I hope everything is ok! You'll be in my prayers. Feel free to call me or email me if you just wanna chat!

Angela :)

Suzi said...

Sorry you are having a rough time. You'll find that door!

Karen AKA Soccerboyzmom said...

I know something good will come your way when you least expect it.

miggyswamp said...

What happened, mum? And why did I not hear about this on the phone? :( *hug*

rosegarden said...

Sorry about your bad day. I hope a good night's rest (if you got one) gives you some new perspective. Love your work Lisa

connie said...

Lisa you have a very special talent and please don't EVER GIVE UP on your dream! You have inspired many people. I visit your blog daily - I may not leave comments all the time but I do visit. I strongly believe that when one door closes another opens. HE has the plan and knows what is best for you and we can not second guest him. Please keep the faith and NEVER give up!

Janie said...

Hey girl,
This is just a little bump in the road of your journey and there are bigger and better things in store for you. This new creative chapter will be better than the last. You are one of the most creative...and nicest...people I have the privilage to know.

patty w said...

{{{{HUGS}}}}

Whatever is going on...know that you are well loved and you have an abundance of talent to share with the world !

Thinking of you and praying for you!

Patty 2832

Sara said...

I've been there! Go and create like a mad woman...and do it all for YOU.